Fuck Queer Eye

They make me feel things, and I can NOT deal with it.

Is that a clickbaity title? Yes. Do I care? No.

I have been watching QE while trying to start my business and lawd. I can't tell if I'm due on or if it just makes me feel all the things. I've just finished watching the one where they help the school with their prom, and I just dissolved.

So. I'm starting my own business now, but in January, I was a teacher, working in a middle school (9-13yo's). I was fighting for the rights of children, fighting for their gender and identity expression, fighting for the rights of the younguns with SEND (Special Educational Needs and Disabilities, for the uninitiated), and all the while; I was trying to work in an environment that wasn't right for me, which meant I was fighting to look after 1000 kiddos and also myself; in a school that wasn't sure what it was doing. Let's throw in my landlords kicking me out because they wanted to sell the flat so I'm back at my parents too. I just couldn't continue. I couldn't keep going and fighting without doing something stupid. So, I left. Which broke my heart and broke some of the kid's hearts too. I don't want to come across as immodest, but I know this for a fact. There were many notes, gifts, and tears on my last day.

I have been out of schools for about four months now, annnnd I can say I’m so much happier now. However, I do miss making a difference for younguns. That’s kinda what I want to do with this blog and website. I want to create resources for young people to help them figure out their identity, sexuality, why they feel different, and why it’s OK to feel and be different.

I’m a freak, and I’m pretty OK with that nowadays. It’s taken a while for me to get there, so I totally understand that it’s a journey to accepting all your lil’ eccentricities and differences. I’ll lead the way so y’all can shine in your rainbow glory, alright, pals?

Love you, say it back.

Kirstifer